Tonight I'm anxious and I can't figure out why.
I was feeling anxious yesterday and then found out that the closest chance I had for a job was all for not. I wasn't feeling anxious about that per se, it just happened that I got the news about the job falling through after feeling super anxious most of the evening.
Sometimes I think I really am crazy. I had a great weekend with Jon, as usual. We had sushi, went out to have drinks with one of his oldest friends, went to Summer and Johnnie's for dinner and swimming... he always makes me feel so special and loved. I told him that I was feeling anxious. I was worrying that I was being clingy or that he was going to get bored of me. He said he's not sick or tired of me, and he said he's not going to get bored of me. I feel silly for even thinking that he would, but can you blame me? I have trust issues. Every possible sign points to him actually being genuine and caring about me. We have fun together, we have inside jokes, we can have intelligent, meaningful conversation... I don't know why I'm so nervous and insecure. I'm so worried about losing him even though he is clearly not going anywhere.
I don't know where I'm going with this. I'm just tired right now because it's almost 1am and I've been watching Orange is the New Black all night and for some reason it's making me miss Jon.
Wednesday, June 25, 2014
Wednesday, June 11, 2014
Soap Box-a-palooza!
I'm feeling very silly and childish at the moment. This is bothering me even though it really effects me in no way. But I feel I must defend a book I love... so here we go haha.
This is a semi-response post to my friend's blog.
Annie, if you end up reading this, which I sort of doubt, please don't hate The Fault in Our Stars because the trailers gave away so much of the movie and there wasn't enough character development.
Ok, so I'm a big believer that books are generally better than movies... I cannot think of one book turned movie where I've liked the movie better. Even my very favorite movie, Jurassic Park, can't hold a candle to the novel Crichton wrote. There's so much more you can do with the written word than can be smashed into a 90-minute blockbuster. Theater of the mind.
Now, did I think the TFiOS movie was perfect? No. There were parts that I missed from the book. I felt they made Hazel a little too clingy at the beginning (the whole montage of her checking her phone... totally doesn't happen that way in the book! Made her feel too "typical teenaged girl" to me). I missed her friend Katelyn, because she made it seem like Hazel did have some other social interaction in the world. I felt that they should've kept in Gus's ex girlfriend who died of an "asshole tumor," to reiterate that there's nothing heroic about dying with cancer. You didn't get to see enough of the relationship between Issac and Hazel (Though, I thought Nat Wolf was fantastic as Issac and I'm excited to see him be Q in the Paper Towns movie). I could kind of go on and on.
Did I dislike the movie? No. As far as movie adaptations go, I felt it was pretty damn faithful. Maybe this is just because I was a little disappointed with the Divergent movie compared to the book, but most of the major plot points were there in TFiOS. It was semi predictable, I guess, but I read the book long before hearing anything about the movie, and it didn't seem predictable to me at all when I read it the first time. The reveal of Gus dying was so much more impactful. Plus, movie trailers are usually edited by different people than those who edit the movie. They're trying to sell the movie, make you want to see it.... and they almost always give away everything anymore. So I can see how someone who didn't read the book can get the gist of it from a 2-minute trailer. Plus it's been on the NY Times bestsellers list for like 2 years now, most people who haven't read the book knew what was going to happen before seeing the movie. I really enjoyed Shaileen Woodly, she was how I pictured Hazel in my head in most ways. I was a tad disappointed with how they portrayed Augustus... he was too full of himself. He's that way in the book too, but I felt it was amped up a bit in the movie. (Fun Fact, Green was talking in an interview about how he's mostly called Augustus in the beginning, when he's like an Emporer longing to be remembered, then he's mostly referred to as Gus toward the end to kind of cut him down a bit... totally didn't realize this until the 3rd reading... even though he says the line, "You used to call me Augustus" while at the gas station...)
Then there's the sub-plot of finding out what happens after An Imperial Affliction. They don't talk about that book enough in the movie. It's all a metaphor for how Hazel worries about what will happen after she dies... will her parents be ok? What will happen to her friends? She needs Van Houten to answer questions about what happened to the people in Anna's life so that she can feel more at ease about her own future... They did kind of show this in the movie but I liked how it developed better in the book. Oh, and there was not nearly enough video games in the movie haha.
I've been on my soap box long enough, I guess (and it's after 1:30 in the morning now, so I should maybe sleep). Longish story short, which since we've talked you're already starting to see, the book is so much better than the movie. John Green has become one of my favorite authors. And even though I should probably feel silly saying that since he writes YA novels, I don't care. I still like YA novels better than most adult fiction. You can't fit everything in a movie. We don't have long enough attention spans for that. Unless you're Peter Jackson and you want to turn the Hobbit into 3 movies even though it's not that long of a book... I mean seriously, all of the LOTR books are longer and only got 1 movie each...
Also, Looking For Alaska is still probably my favorite John Green novel. And I'm actually very glad that they haven't turned that into a movie. I want that one to remain how it is in my head. Probably because it made me so much more emotional.
This is a semi-response post to my friend's blog.
Annie, if you end up reading this, which I sort of doubt, please don't hate The Fault in Our Stars because the trailers gave away so much of the movie and there wasn't enough character development.
Ok, so I'm a big believer that books are generally better than movies... I cannot think of one book turned movie where I've liked the movie better. Even my very favorite movie, Jurassic Park, can't hold a candle to the novel Crichton wrote. There's so much more you can do with the written word than can be smashed into a 90-minute blockbuster. Theater of the mind.
Now, did I think the TFiOS movie was perfect? No. There were parts that I missed from the book. I felt they made Hazel a little too clingy at the beginning (the whole montage of her checking her phone... totally doesn't happen that way in the book! Made her feel too "typical teenaged girl" to me). I missed her friend Katelyn, because she made it seem like Hazel did have some other social interaction in the world. I felt that they should've kept in Gus's ex girlfriend who died of an "asshole tumor," to reiterate that there's nothing heroic about dying with cancer. You didn't get to see enough of the relationship between Issac and Hazel (Though, I thought Nat Wolf was fantastic as Issac and I'm excited to see him be Q in the Paper Towns movie). I could kind of go on and on.
Did I dislike the movie? No. As far as movie adaptations go, I felt it was pretty damn faithful. Maybe this is just because I was a little disappointed with the Divergent movie compared to the book, but most of the major plot points were there in TFiOS. It was semi predictable, I guess, but I read the book long before hearing anything about the movie, and it didn't seem predictable to me at all when I read it the first time. The reveal of Gus dying was so much more impactful. Plus, movie trailers are usually edited by different people than those who edit the movie. They're trying to sell the movie, make you want to see it.... and they almost always give away everything anymore. So I can see how someone who didn't read the book can get the gist of it from a 2-minute trailer. Plus it's been on the NY Times bestsellers list for like 2 years now, most people who haven't read the book knew what was going to happen before seeing the movie. I really enjoyed Shaileen Woodly, she was how I pictured Hazel in my head in most ways. I was a tad disappointed with how they portrayed Augustus... he was too full of himself. He's that way in the book too, but I felt it was amped up a bit in the movie. (Fun Fact, Green was talking in an interview about how he's mostly called Augustus in the beginning, when he's like an Emporer longing to be remembered, then he's mostly referred to as Gus toward the end to kind of cut him down a bit... totally didn't realize this until the 3rd reading... even though he says the line, "You used to call me Augustus" while at the gas station...)
Then there's the sub-plot of finding out what happens after An Imperial Affliction. They don't talk about that book enough in the movie. It's all a metaphor for how Hazel worries about what will happen after she dies... will her parents be ok? What will happen to her friends? She needs Van Houten to answer questions about what happened to the people in Anna's life so that she can feel more at ease about her own future... They did kind of show this in the movie but I liked how it developed better in the book. Oh, and there was not nearly enough video games in the movie haha.
I've been on my soap box long enough, I guess (and it's after 1:30 in the morning now, so I should maybe sleep). Longish story short, which since we've talked you're already starting to see, the book is so much better than the movie. John Green has become one of my favorite authors. And even though I should probably feel silly saying that since he writes YA novels, I don't care. I still like YA novels better than most adult fiction. You can't fit everything in a movie. We don't have long enough attention spans for that. Unless you're Peter Jackson and you want to turn the Hobbit into 3 movies even though it's not that long of a book... I mean seriously, all of the LOTR books are longer and only got 1 movie each...
Also, Looking For Alaska is still probably my favorite John Green novel. And I'm actually very glad that they haven't turned that into a movie. I want that one to remain how it is in my head. Probably because it made me so much more emotional.
Tuesday, June 3, 2014
Save the Date
Today is one of those days that solidifies how head over heels I am for my boyfriend. I don't want to give too many details away because it's suddenly super late and I'm sleepy.
So while we were sitting at dinner tonight, Jon started talking about how he's going to be saving a few hundred a month on gas with his new car. He then says that he wants to save some of that money so that the 2 of us can go on some trips. Apparently we're going to San Fran for Valentine's because a friend of his is getting married on the 13th. He wants us to go to Hawaii and NYC. I was pretty much just smiling during this whole conversation. I don't want him to pay for these types of things completely, but the fact that he wants to do these things, that he's planning on these things, makes me so happy.
All weekend felt like a very "adult" weekend. I went car shopping with him, we had a BBQ with friends. We had a little day adventure to LA to watch a TV show, then hung around the Grove for a few hours. It really was nice. We also had a lot of time to cuddle and just spend time together. Just before he left he was talking about how he wished one of us had our own place so that he didn't need to leave and we wouldn't have to worry about who is up or home. I loved it. I love him. Basically I just wanted to write a quick blog because this is the closest we've come to talking about the future and I loved it.
So while we were sitting at dinner tonight, Jon started talking about how he's going to be saving a few hundred a month on gas with his new car. He then says that he wants to save some of that money so that the 2 of us can go on some trips. Apparently we're going to San Fran for Valentine's because a friend of his is getting married on the 13th. He wants us to go to Hawaii and NYC. I was pretty much just smiling during this whole conversation. I don't want him to pay for these types of things completely, but the fact that he wants to do these things, that he's planning on these things, makes me so happy.
All weekend felt like a very "adult" weekend. I went car shopping with him, we had a BBQ with friends. We had a little day adventure to LA to watch a TV show, then hung around the Grove for a few hours. It really was nice. We also had a lot of time to cuddle and just spend time together. Just before he left he was talking about how he wished one of us had our own place so that he didn't need to leave and we wouldn't have to worry about who is up or home. I loved it. I love him. Basically I just wanted to write a quick blog because this is the closest we've come to talking about the future and I loved it.
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